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August 10th 2014: 1 Kings 19:9-18 and Matthew 14:12-22

In a slight change to what I’ve been doing with this so far, I thought that today I’d give you my sermon notes for this morning to read. Hopefully this what I’ll say when I get up to preach. I hope you find them useful!

Good morning, it’s a real pleasure to be with you once again. Thank you for your kind welcome to Jo and myself in the last few weeks. We really feel like we are starting to settle in and feel part of things in the Emmanuel Group already, which is a real joy for us.

This morning I want to talk about two key things which can be huge drivers in our lives, trust and fear. We’ll look at two stories, the first Elijah hiding in a cave in 1 Kings 19 to escape his own destruction, and the second Jesus, and then Peter’s walking on the water as the disciples are saved from a storm a good distance from the shore. I hope that we will see from these stories the terrible consequence that fear can have in our lives, and the tremendous positive it can be to instead trust God with our lives, and follow in His way.

I drove a speedboat once. Imagine it if you will. On a school trip on the South coast. I remember the thrill as the boat crested the waves. I felt so powerful. It was one of those times when you understand why you are alive. Nothing can go wrong. You have all the power you could ever need. It all makes sense. But then something does, in fact go wrong. In my case it was that I drove too fast, and required the steadying hand of an instructor to keep me from crashing, capsizing, or worse. In the moment where it all went wrong I was gripped by fear. From having been in complete, somewhat arrogant control just a moment before, now I felt completely unable to do anything to save myself. Fortunately, the instructor was an expert, who had been readying himself for exactly this kind of eventuality and was easily able to rectify my mistakes, chastise me slightly and make me realize that even though I knew something about how to drive a speedboat, because he had told me how to do it, and that I knew that I had the potential to have the capability to do it well, I did not have all of the experience and capabilities which the instructor did have. It was lucky that he was there to rescue me that day, otherwise I wouldn’t be here with you this morning.

It’s easy for us to think that we have everything that we could possibly need, that we do not need anything outside of ourselves. Humans can be greedy, self-serving, we can be prone to putting ourselves before others. One of the primary things that we see as we look around our world, this week of all weeks, is the tendency that we have, to operate out of fear. All over the world we see injustice being lived out, pain and suffering being caused, as individuals, groups and nations continually prove that they are unable to successfully coexist with one another. Instead we must prove that we have the power and the authority to live as we want to, often to the detriment of other people.

In our 1st reading this morning, from 1st Kings chapter 19, we find Elijah running away in fear from the responsibility of proclamation given to him by God. In what would be a standard old Testament theophany, appearance of God to man, we find wind, earthquake and fire passing by Elijah on the mountain, but as the writer of first Kings tells us, The Lord was not in any of them. After this in verses 12 and 13,  Elijah hears a gentle whisper, which causes into draw his cloak about his face and go and stand at the mouth of the cave. Notice that the writer does not here say that the Lord was in the small voice. It is all too easy for us to assume that this was what drew Elijah out, but was it? Arguably what the reading actually tells us is that, having had quite an experience with wind, earthquake and fire, Elijah comes out in the calm, and God is then able to regain his attention. In spite of what seem like quite justified quibbles in verse 14 about his own safety, Elijah isn’t able to sway God. Living in his fear, he doesn’t know better. God has called, and equipped him perfectly for the task of proclamation that is before him. Elijah, humanly speaking, was probably quite right to be worried. I expect most of us would be if we found ourselves in his situation, but as I said, God had called him and would go with him as he went on in his journey of service. Are there things this morning that we think God might have called us to but from which we are hiding in a cave? Are we preserving ourselves, thinking we know better? Are we perhaps even afraid? If we are then we’re in good company, but the message of Elijah is that, in the end, he had to trust God, and much fruit was born from that trust.

Moving to our gospel reading for this morning, Matthew 14, we find Jesus, having just fed the 5000, and revealed something of who He was to His disciples, sending them away, so that He could withdraw and be with His Father. Matthew is clear that Jesus was alone up the mountain. He is also clear that, as the disciples had been sent out in the boat, they were far from the shore “buffeted by the waves, because the wind was against them”. We then see that, as they were in great distress, Jesus came to them walking on the water.

This should make us sit up and take notice. Walking on the water isn’t exactly normal, everyday behavior. It could be here that Matthew is drawing the attention of his readers to the fulfilment of Job 9:8  “He alone spreads out the heavens and walks upon the waves of the sea”, or is making allusions to Habakkuk 3:15 “You stepped on the sea with Your horses, on the waves of many waters.” But it is crucial to remember also that Matthew’s purpose in his gospel is to present the humanity of Jesus, as well as his divinity. Jesus is the Jewish messiah for Matthew because he fulfills all the human characteristics He needed to have in order to do so. Rather than trying to prove who He is here, He is coming to the aid of His friends who are in distress. Although this story undoubtedly does show something of who Jesus was, it is important, for Matthew, that it be shown that Jesus was able to save them because He trusted God. This is emphasized by the conferral of the power to walk on water to Peter. He only loses that power when he stops trusting Jesus, and starts trusting in himself and notices the circumstances that he’s in. Then he’s chastised by Jesus. Jesus has given him the instruction, “come”, simply come, not to worry about how he was going to get there or what it might look or feel like, and for a few short moments, Peter did simply come, and he was making it. It was only when he complicated matters that he was in trouble.

So, are we all called to walk on water, or like me, are we all going to find the nearest speedboat, jump in and hope for the best? I don’t think that’s entirely the point, but in a sense, the point that Matthew is making in his telling of this story is that, yes, Jesus is the son of God; yes He does have authority over the natural world (see also the feeding of the 5000, the earlier calming of the storm) but also that, through Him, these things are available to us too. Do we fear that the real power of the Spirit isn’t for us, for whatever reason? I know I do sometimes. I hear stories of miracles, of the supernatural intervention of God in situations and circumstances and I think “no, not for me”. Or perhaps in another sense, I’d rather be limited by my situation and circumstances, by what I can see and know, and I don’t trust Jesus, when He calls me to follow after Him doing even greater things than He has done. Ultimately, it is fear, and a lack of trust, that keeps me from living the life that could be mine. I think that goes for many of us all too often, but I can’t speak for you!

God wanted Elijah to trust Him, so that He could show Elijah something of His glory. Jesus walked on the water to help His friends, and to show something of possibility that is available to us because of who He is and what He has done.

We are who we are because of God. He knew us from before creation, calling us in to being to be with Him, and drawing us towards Him throughout all of history. He is eternally calling us towards Him and, in Jesus, steps inside human history, and the story of our lives, so that we might have life, and have it to the full. Whatever kind of life we’ve lived, or are living today, the offer of life, love, hope and a future is open to us, because of the goodness and greatness of God. Because Jesus died and rose again, the way to God need never be closed to us again. We are offered a choice. Will we trust Jesus enough to walk on the water towards Him, at the same time knowing that He will reach out and save us “immediately” if we ask Him, or do we want to live in fear? I know which one appeals to me more. It’s a case, every day, of asking God, “show me a new way to trust you today.” It might be a brave step, you might have made it many times before, but consider again making the choice to trust God today. He is your saviour, your shield and your defender, and He is waiting for you. When we’ve done that, let’s live to be a sign to the world that trusting God, rather than ourselves, and not fearing what we do not know or understand, is a real, viable alternative as a way of life. Let’s be a sign in the world that we have a way of life which works, and live to glorify God in everything we do this week.

Amen

 

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Disability

I Am Not….

Over the last couple of days, I’ve sat in Gosport and Southampton, listening via Skype while a dude named Eric, who I’ve never met, played in a studio in Rochester, New York, recording drums on a bunch of my songs. This strikes me as somewhat crazy. While I’d rather be in New York – who wouldn’t rather be in New York than Gosport? – this is a pretty good deal. It’s meant that the EP I’m working on has had the drummer who fitted it just right play on it. It’s also enabled us to welcome Eric, and Brian, who engineered the session and entertained us royally, into the community that is building around the songs and the vision behind them.

Writing and recording songs has been one my favourite things to do since I started in bands around the age of 18. There are loads of reasons, but one of them is that the moment when you realise that you have a good song on your hands is unlike almost anything else. A good song is a good song, whether it’s written by the latest production line pop strumpet, or a grizzled veteran. When it comes to music, the fact that I’m a wheelchair user is of no consequence at all. If my songs are good, they’re good. If they’re not so good…

My cerebral palsy is a big part of my life, but it does not define me. I’m not Haydon, the disabled ordinand (trainee vicar), or Haydon the wheelchair singing guy (although I’ve been called that before). I’m Haydon, the son of God. That’s the whole of it. Not a mention of disability anywhere in that identity is there? We’re identified first, foremost and only by the loving action of God, through Christ, in our lives. Nothing more. Nothing less. It’s funny in a piece on inclusion to say something like this, which you, the reader, may perceive to be exclusive. Sorry about that. For my part I’ve found that every label other than son of God that either I’ve used, or has been used about me to identify me gives me, or others, the opportunity to either think of myself as better or worse than other people. All are equal in the eyes of God. All. No one is better. No one is worse. That is inclusion. That is an enabled society. Anything else is a pale reflection of God’s intention for society.

I strongly think that we, in this country at this time, have a key role to play in the development of a new kind of society. Not only can we be primary movers in social change, so that the loving kindness and justice of God can prevail in our broken society, but we need to learn to live, love and act in such a way as to make our communities real and whole. Just as no one is excluded from the offer of life in Christ, so no one should be excluded from our church families, from the communities we build together. Whether that means you change physical elements of church life, open up to the possibility of people around you being depressed (there will be some depressed people that you know, whether you are aware of their depression or not) or you consider what an inclusive, enabled community that features people from all the parts of God’s glorious creation might actually look like, this is something that we need to get stuck in to, in this place, in this time.

Let me not be known as Haydon the wheelchair singing guy (please, not that). Let me be known as Haydon, the son of God who abounds in loving kindness and partners with God in bringing about His kingdom. Let us be remembered in history as the generation marked out by our abandoned love for Christ and all of His beloved sons and daughters, including those who our society and, God forbid, our Church, currently disables.

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Disability

When Healing Doesn’t Come

All of us, I think, want to be healed of something. Whether it’s something outwardly obvious, like a condition or an illness, or something internal like depression, or even a character trait or flaw that we or others perceive, none of us, if we’re truly honest, would say there was nothing we would change about ourselves. And that’s quite apart from the game some of us like to play where we look at others and decide how we would change or improve them. We’re a fun bunch aren’t we?

If you’ve read my stuff here before you’ll know that I have issues with depression. You might well have picked up too that I have Cerebral Palsy and use a wheelchair to get around (and to gain free entry to sporting events). As I’ve grown up around the evangelical charismatic wing of the Church, I’ve had a pretty wide variety of experiences of healing. I think I’ve seen miracles happen. I’ve definitely seen medical professionals and carers act as agents of the miraculous in changing my life and the lives of many people. And yet I’ve also seen many people who have had sicknesses, ailments, life-ending diseases, for whom grace and mercy has not included a cure or healing. What are we to make of this?

Thinking about answering the question though, I’ve kept coming back to one thought: Are we seeking healing so that we can be who we were created to be, or are we seeking healing so that we can be someone else? In short, are we seeking healing from ourselves? Jesus healed the sick. So did the disciples. We are called to do likewise in His name. Often, healing encounters in scripture begin with “what do you want me to do for you?” or some such question as this. The question is not “what do you want me to make of you?” or “who do you want me to make you?” There is the possibility of us carrying a prototype image of the perfect Christian man or woman around with us and aspiring to that. Personally, I think this is dangerous.

The only measure of success in the Christian life is in our fruit and in our being changed more and more into the likeness of Christ. Sadly, and I do mean this, I have had to find a way to come to terms with the idea that Cerebral Palsy might be part of the person that God designed me to be.I believe, instinctively, that this is possible, whilst at the same time believing another person with Cerebral Palsy might be healed (although I’ve never heard of such a healing taking place). What I mean by this is, in the provision of God, I don’t always get what I want (probably a good thing), but somehow I have to trust God that He knows what I need. If I could have convinced Him to get rid of my CP I would have. So far it hasn’t happened. We all need the (promised) healing of salvation, though. Perhaps we also need to ask God to heal our senses of self, our perspectives on who we are, our aspirations, so that when good and bad things come, we can remain firm in the faith that has been set before us, and find some way of staying thankful.

I realise that I have by no means explained why healing doesn’t always happen. I think it would be a falsehood to claim it were possible to explain it all. Wherever you find yourself as you read this, whether you are aware of your need for healing, or whether you rejoice in having already received it, or you mourn for the lack of it, I want to close by encouraging all of us to look to Jesus.

Jesus may not answer every question. Some do, maddeningly, remain unanswered. He will, though, go before us and stand with us in whatever we face. As His strength is most clearly shown in overcoming the ultimate weakness of the cross, so when I am weak, then the strength and vulnerability of Jesus, His victory, is what I can look to. So can you.

 

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